Thursday, March 31, 2022

Merging Stories


“It won’t stay on my head,” I whisper to Ellen as I try surreptitiously to pull the headscarf back up higher, succeeding only in pushing hair into my face. How had the others all tied it? And how are they sitting so perfectly with their knees tucked under them? I squirm as softly as I can, shifting to a new position. My movement brings the attention of our B____ hostess who gestures at the tablecloth on the floor before us, filled to the edges with tea, naan bread, shredded carrots, pickled roots, Russian candy, wafer cookies, and liver. “She says ‘Eat,’” our friend translates. “I figured,” I smile back, mustering up the gratitude in my heart for getting to be here. I drink a big gulp of tea and hold a chunk of liver and naan in my hand for a while, as I had been coached, only shoving it in my mouth when I am prompted to eat again. It’s a pattern. 

Sitting around the table on the plush mats with the flower designs are four women from a people group with an estimated 4,000 members worldwide. My mind still cannot fully comprehend what that low number means - for a language, a culture, the next generation. Their origin is shrouded in such mystery that they don’t even know for sure where their ancestors came from, but they seem mostly content living here on the edge of a former Soviet city at the foot of the mountains. Out the window we can see the shell of the home one of the women is building with her husband, and her two sons who come in and out of our room are all smiles. These five women are actually more than content, for they have found a hope that will outlast even the extinction of their people group.

Our friend opens the Scriptures to Mark 9 and begins to read at v.14, and the women lean in. The baby girl with the massive eyes starts to fuss a little and is passed around from one lap to the next, but she doesn’t deter their focus from the story they are hearing of Jesus healing a demon-possessed boy. They nod because they know. They have faced oppression of many kinds, legal, physical, communal, spiritual, and they too have found Jesus to be stronger and worth it all. 

The liver in my hand is heavy and cold, and I work to tuck it under the rim of the teacup while I marvel at the faith of these beautiful people. As the discussion of the passage comes to end and we move toward prayer, our hostess points to Ellen and me to start. Following their example, I hold out my hands before me, palms up, while my mind races, “Do I have adequate words?” Thankfully Ellen goes first and in her prayer reminds me that this story we’re living in our vastly separate worlds is not the end. In fact, they will merge. One day I will hug these women again, and we will speak the same language, and they will no longer have dreams that frighten or neighbors who want to stop their building projects or children who cannot get medical treatment. Truly they are my sisters in Christ, the completion of all our stories. 

The men join in for the final prayer of blessing, and I manage to escape having eaten only two bites of liver. I shrug up my headscarf again, searching my pockets for a bobby pin, as we are passed from hug to hug next to the car. One of them holds me close and speaks words I don’t understand. I respond with my own words, a blessing from the Old Testament, and somehow it feels like we may have just said the same thing. What a gift that our stories intertwined in this brief earthly moment.


Tuesday, March 15, 2022

Two Years Later


I tend to blame this thinking on the fact that I’m a history teacher, but I very often like to reflect back to where I was and what I was doing exactly 1 month ago, 1 year ago, 10 years ago. There’s actually been a lot of that going around this particular weekend as everyone remembers back to 2 years ago and one of the most stressful weekends in BFA history. It was March 13 when we were summoned to an All-School Assembly and told about remote teaching/learning that was about to descend upon us. Dorm kids were instructed to take everything home as Res Life and parents were currently booking planes and trains for all 108 of them. On March 14 and 15 I was scheduled for three train station runs, though in the end I only completed one of them as the others had canceled flights or were informed that they wouldn’t be allowed into their countries. By March 16 we were cleaning out lockers to discard food and hauling books and projects home in our cars, and on March 17 when the doors locked, we stared at our laptops wide-eyed and set our clocks to 18 time zones as our students suddenly spanned from California to Korea.

That spring we hoped a lot in “two week” increments as Lockdown slowly stretched into seven. Even that seems like a short span now. But the sun shines brighter two years later, despite the fact that we still squint at it over our masks. The proof is in the collection of pictures from this recent weekend!

Marking the past and seeing where we are in the present has always been valuable to me, and that’s not just because I’m a history teacher. I think it’s biblical. We see it when Joshua and the Israelites set up stones of remembrance. There's the annual visit Hannah makes to the Temple to thank Yahweh for her son, and that's on top of all the festivals the whole nation was asked to keep - to recall God's goodness to them. So if remembering draws me toward gratitude and worship, then I will constantly look to the past.

Today I praise him for the chance to cheer at soccer games, for students who invite my inner child to play improv games with them in my living room even as I invite them to drink my tea, for the Middle Schooler whose sole aim during laser tag was to keep me alive, for the first in-person recital I've attended in over 26 months, and for the girls currently squealing on my floor and working on my birthday puzzle. Two years later, I recognize the gift it is to experience human touch and resume the intimate living we used to know. Praise God!

7th Grade Laser Tag

First soccer game since 2019


Cast Tea Party

Recital Song "Give Me Jesus"